Halooo, sekarang tanggal 22 Desember 2016.
Hari ibuuuuu!
Semua ibu di dunia ini istimewaaaa!
Umm, kemarin akhirnya kami (mama & papa) sepakat ke rumah sakit.
Huffftt, finally! Ke R.U.M.A.H S.A.K.I.T
Setelah jeda selama 6 bulan!
Apa dokter bilang?
Tetap, kemo. Huuhuhuu~
Kembalilah (lagi) aku dan keluarga debat pro-kontra kemo.
Dan, inilah kado hari ibu dariku untuk Ama di tahun ini, Anti mau kemoterapi.
Ini pilihan yang tidak mudah.
Ama terlihat murung. Aku tahu beliau menangis dalam diam.
She keeps asking me "kamu yakin mau kemo? Kuat? Yakin?"
I know that question is actually asked for herself.
She asks herself "my only daughter has cancer and she will have chemotherapy.
seriously? is it real or just a dream?"
This year, I didn't say "selamat hari ibu, ya Ama sayang" in mother's day.
I was in the hospital with my mom in mother's day.
I said "I agree to have chemotherapy" to my mom in mother's day.
It breaks her heart. I break her heart in her day.
And again she asks "yakin mau kemo?" ,
I dont answer it because I know she is talking to herself.
